This is a point of growth
This is a point of change
This is a point of hope
Though that might sound strange.
 
I don’t know where I’ve been living
But it ain’t been reality
Feel like I’ve been mentally imprisoned
Surrounded by tragedy.
 
Trying to keep hope
When everyday hope was fading
Just trying to cope
In such painful situations.
 
Clinging to hope 
Anywhere I could find
Trying to steady the boat
Keep sanity in my mind.
 
I’ve been journeying through pain
Faintly hoping she’d be on the other side
But that was a foolish notion
Reality has rectified.
 
But just having that hope
In someways pulled me through
When you are walking dark roads
It helps thinking there might be light 
there for you.
 
And when you feel like you’re losing
And everything is falling apart
That might of been a bruising too many
For my black and blue heart.
 
May have created a coward 
In how I behaved
For my heart was hurting so much
It feared what it craved.
 
When I saw her by chance 
My heart quickly closed up
For the pain it was in
Was affecting my guts.
 
She was all that it wanted
All that I needed
But my heart didn’t know what she was
In the way it was greeted.

It couldn’t handle that look
If it didn’t have love inside
And maybe in those moments she was cut
And any feelings for me she had died.
 
I can only look at me
And the mistakes that I made
And with a heavy dose of reality
Use pain to ensure they’re never again made.
 
It kills me so much
I believe so much in that girl
But I was hurting so much
I was losing trust in this world.
 
Losing trust in myself
And what I’m about
I was so consumed with pain
It was hard to see a way out.
 
Hard to bring someone in
When you’re at that point
And you feel they should be in better places
Than with a man out of joint.
 
This is not what I wanted
But maybe it’s what I needed
And the pain that I feel
Maybe I deserve to receive it.
 
This is a point of growth
This is a point of change
This is a point of hope
Though that might sound strange.
 
For as sure as blood flows in my veins 
And ink leaves this pen
I don’t want to lose
A woman like that, ever again.
 
As sure as blood flows in my veins
And ink leaves this pen
I don’t want to lose
A woman like that, ever again.
 
Never Again.

© Daniel Breslin