Looking for something reliable
Something I can hold
Something undeniable
That doesn’t leave me feeling cold.
 
Looking for connection
With someone connected to me
Looking for affection
The kind I can feel or see. 
 
Looking for another
That doesn’t make me feel alone
Looking for the other 
To make this world a home.
 
There’s love in communication 
And that’s what I really need
I’m searching for a deeper stimulation
Something more for me.
 
I’ve spent a lot of time 
Meeting others needs
And I have a little hurt and anger
In how others have treated me. 
 
I have an anger with myself
In my needs and how I express them
Still learning in the loss
For in every loss a lesson.
 
I have an anger at myself
For actions, made in pain
But I show compassion to myself
For I sure can’t shoulder all the blame.
 
I have a sense of grief 
In how I might have made others feel
As I struggled for some peace and relief 
From the depth of pain I was facing, in my efforts to heal.
 
I have a sense of loss 
In the things that weren’t there for me
The things I couldn’t get across
The things others maybe didn’t see.
 
Pain can cloud your mind
Pain can cloud your vision
But pain must be given its time
If we are to really connect with the life we’re living. 
 
Nothing is resolved
Few things in this life are sure
But as I try to problem solve
Something deeper, feels, the only cure.
 
Every day’s a step
In the right direction
Where I grow, knowing a little less
In my journey, toward love and affection. 

© Daniel Breslin