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Cracks Of Light

The things that give us structure
The things that keep us sane
When we’re feeling completely ruptured
Dealing with our pain.
 
When the things that hit us hard
Let us not do things as we could
When we struggle in our hearts
To give ourselves self love.
 
When the things that cause us stresses
Keep us locked-down in our minds
And lockdowns surely test us
Especially over time.
 
When hope it keeps on leaving
Every time it feels near
And it feels life keeps on thieving 
Anything resembling clear.
 
We must focus on the small things
Hold those small things dear
And do our best above all things
Not to completely cave to fear.
 
I get mad at myself sometimes
And I get scared of what I have for me here
When I see less and less of good times
And things and those I love are seldom near.
 
It is then I cling to structure
And the little cracks of light that appear
They keep me from cracking up in my mind
And keep hope a little closer than fear.
 
Be gentle with your own minds
When dark times do appear
We’re all traveling through our own lives
With different challenges and hopes while we're here.
 
Battling our feelings and our minds
We battle most everything we fear
And I just hope as we walk through dark times
For you, that little bit of structure, and cracks of light appear.
 
When you are walking through those dark times
Try take something from the fact you are here
And keep battling through those dark times
Till those cracks of light appear.

© Daniel Breslin

Something Undeniable

Looking for something reliable
Something I can hold
Something undeniable
That doesn’t leave me feeling cold.
 
Looking for connection
With someone connected to me
Looking for affection
The kind I can feel or see. 
 
Looking for another
That doesn’t make me feel alone
Looking for the other 
To make this world a home.
 
There’s love in communication 
And that’s what I really need
I’m searching for a deeper stimulation
Something more for me.
 
I’ve spent a lot of time 
Meeting others needs
And I have a little hurt and anger
In how others have treated me. 
 
I have an anger with myself
In my needs and how I express them
Still learning in the loss
For in every loss a lesson.
 
I have an anger at myself
For actions, made in pain
But I show compassion to myself
For I sure can’t shoulder all the blame.
 
I have a sense of grief 
In how I might have made others feel
As I struggled for some peace and relief 
From the depth of pain I was facing, in my efforts to heal.
 
I have a sense of loss 
In the things that weren’t there for me
The things I couldn’t get across
The things others maybe didn’t see.
 
Pain can cloud your mind
Pain can cloud your vision
But pain must be given its time
If we are to really connect with the life we’re living. 
 
Nothing is resolved
Few things in this life are sure
But as I try to problem solve
Something deeper, feels, the only cure.
 
Every day’s a step
In the right direction
Where I grow, knowing a little less
In my journey, toward love and affection. 

© Daniel Breslin

Meet And Greet

Feeling sorry for myself
In some ways that’s where I’ve been
Trying to nurse a broken heart
Deny the pain I’m in. 
 
Kind of used to fighting pain
Just ploughing into something else
Trying to focus heart and brain
On making something of myself.
 
Always trying to make something out of it
Create something better than before
But for awhile there’s been really no getting out of it
And the pain in my heart has been harder to ignore.
 
This particular pain
Is not one I really know how to deal with
But maybe in that there’s change
Got to learn to accept and really feel it.
 
I’ve been in search of comfort
Not really sure of how or where to find it
As certain things in life give me such discomfort
And of them I’m constantly reminded.
 
We can try and distance ourselves from pain
Pretend our reality is not what it really is
That’s something I’m trying to change
But now and again I’m still guilty of this.
 
I’ve found some comfort in sharing
Something I’m constantly trying to improve
But sometimes some things in life are wearing
And you can’t help but feeling bruised.
 
But today the sun is shining
And I acknowledge that pain deep
And I lose the sorry for myself part
Not something you can always avoid but not a part you have to keep.
 
I go out and face the day
A little more aware, vulnerable, and yet stronger in who I am
We all have our burdens to bare
And not everything goes to plan.
 
I don’t even know what that plan is
Just that in my heart I want some change in
And I feel more certain in the knowledge, we all have days
Where it feels good, to meet and greet our pain within.

© Daniel Breslin

Sunset

I’m sitting in the stillness
Watching the birds fly
Watching the sunset
Give colour to the sky.
I hear my neighbours in their garden
Talk muffled behind their kids play
And I’m not intentionally trying to listen
But I can’t help but laugh at what the kids say.
 
They talk of missing school
How it feels like summer is already done
And they list the things they love
Like just to do that is fun.
 
There is such life in their voices
I’m lifted by the words they say
As they are so excited making their choices
Naming the things that make their day
I’m taken back to my own youth
Something that is forever slipping away
But kids have a way of giving it back to you
Effortlessly, in their play.
 
Talk about their favourite sandwiches
Simple things they love
Giving off the feeling
That this world is inherently good
And I return to me
As they venture back inside
And I look up a little differently
At the sunset in the sky.

I sit in the stillness
Feeling the breeze, watching birds fly
And I sense the loss of youth
To be a trick of the mind’s eye.
 
© Daniel Breslin

Every Day I’m Learning

Every day I’m learning
Through trials and tribulations
Learning about pain
Learning about patience.
 
Learning we don’t always get
For what it is we’re waiting
Learning about love
Learning about creating.
 
Learning about vulnerability
And the different ways we show it
Learning how to move in it
Learning how to grow it.
 
Learning what I want
Learning what I don’t
Learning what I no longer will
Learning what I no longer won’t.
 
Don’t always get it right
That’s a trick for the dead
But those of us with life
Need to learn to love ourselves through our mistakes instead.
 
Learning how to be more open
Let others deeper in
Learning how much I’ve kept closed
And as those doors open, of new paths to begin.
 
Always looking for improvement
Trying to learn and move with them
Set backs through bumps and bruising
Upsets to our rhythm.
 
Learning what I can
Learning what I could
Learning what I hate
Learning what I love.
 
Learning is the key
As I search for growth
And where there’s learning for me
There always remains hope.
 
Don’t always get it right
That’s a trick for the dead
But those of us with life
Need to learn to love ourselves, through our mistakes instead.
 
Every day I’m learning
Every day is a new one you see
And every day I’m churning
My mistakes into future opportunity.
 
Don’t always get it right
That’s a trick for the dead
But those of us with life
Need to learn, to love ourselves, through our mistakes instead.

© Daniel Breslin

Love In The Distance

I see love in the distance
I see love in a nod
In strangers who are neighbours
Who take to the street to applaud.


Players I can’t see
But a player or players I can hear
As they play music in a sign of unity
And to show that community is still here.


I see love in the distance
As I lean out and squint my eyes
To see neighbours coming closer
Keeping space, while leaving their homes inside.


I see love in the distance
In how they meet and greet each other
Their nods of applaud hold such significance
Non physical hugs, we now give each other.

I see community, I see spirit
I see strength, and I see will
And what I can’t see I can hear
And I feel the love, that distance can not kill.


I see spark and I see heart
I see unity and I see hope
In the spaces kept between neighbours
In strangers up the road. 


As they gather in their outing
For twenty to forty minutes maybe most
At a time full of doubting
To show in distance we’re still close.


I see love in the distance
In how we greet in a nod
And the physicality that’s now missing
Is replaced in a different bond.


I see love in the distance
I see love in music and a nod
In strangers who are neighbours
Taking to the street to bond in an applaud.

© Daniel Breslin

Lost Years

Stepping into a state of grace
Away from my mistakes
Committed under the weight
Of multiple heartbreaks.

Coming to terms with the pain I was in
Pain impossible to avoid
And as I start the path from pain
I rejoice in the fact, that in that pain I was not destroyed.

It feels like everything happened at once
Everything came in a bundle
Just as I was coming to terms with one
Another tragedy would leave me humbled.

When the foundations of my family
Were crumbling before my eyes
Every other bit of pain and tragedy
Lacerated this heart inside.

I watched some I love
Go through some unexpected horrors
Lost a couple of friends
And the pain of their lost tomorrows.

Lost a bit of myself
Or an image of who I thought I was
Some of it through pain
Some of it through sacrifice for a cause.

Lost the foolish concept
That I can do it all on my own
And have been forced to get more honest
With the pain of my own home.

The pain of my beginnings
The pain of who I am
It’s in pain that I’ve been living
But I can feel it beginning to leave this man.

I accept where it is I’m at
I accept from where it is I’ve come
And I take pride in the fact
Of a lot of what I have done and overcome.

Ain’t done it all that smoothly
But I ain’t done it all that bad
My heart and soul have taken one almighty bruising
Yet here I stand.

I let go of what I hoped might be
And I’ll focus on what can be done
I won’t dwell on lost opportunity
Only on the opportunities to come.

I can’t make others decisions
That’s a privilege for themselves
I’ll just get more focused on the life I’m living
And the responsibility to myself.

I let loose responsibility to others
And redirect that focus to me
I’ve given there what I can
Now I’m giving back to me.

I made it through as best I could
I survived the best way I knew how
So I won’t linger on thoughts of should
When I look at where I am now.

These were years full of loss
And I got a little lost in them
But their lessons were not lost
And out of boys that makes men.

I’ll emerge the stronger
And I’ll emerge the better
I’ll not put up with certain things longer
But I learned I can put up with a hell of a lot of pressure.

So out of years of loss
Years lost in pain
While not side stepping the cost
I can see growth all the same.

I take pride in who I am
Focus on what’s ahead
Things fall as they fall
So I’ll not linger on regret.

Regrets are for those
Who keep their feelings to themselves
Or who walk the path of comfort
When the right path leads through hell.

This life is just a journey
We must not fear its depths
For in that there is such learning
About this world and about ourselves.

I’ve rarely shied from pain
I’ve maybe just been a little slow to share it
Always thought it was my burden to claim
And that I had the strength to bare it.

That’s a part I’m changing
And it’s bringing others closer
As I become more open in my pain and my vulnerability
And a certain family role is over.

There ain’t no fairytales here
It’s just facing what you are
And a lot of people can’t do that
So they can only get so far.

I hold my hands up to my mistakes
But I have compassion for where I was
I was operating under a lot of weights
So I have compassion for my flaws.

I have huge compassion for others
Now it’s time for some for me
And it’s through the act of self-compassion
We really set ourselves free.

Stepping into a state of grace
Away from my mistakes
Committed under the weight
Of multiple heartbreaks.

These were years full of loss
And I got a little lost in them
But their lessons were not lost
And out of boys, that makes men.

© Daniel Breslin