The things that give us structure The things that keep us sane When we’re feeling completely ruptured Dealing with our pain. When the things that hit us hard Let us not do things as we could When we struggle in our hearts To give ourselves self love. When the things that cause us stresses Keep us locked-down in our minds And lockdowns surely test us Especially over time. When hope it keeps on leaving Every time it feels near And it feels life keeps on thieving Anything resembling clear. We must focus on the small things Hold those small things dear And do our best above all things Not to completely cave to fear. I get mad at myself sometimes And I get scared of what I have for me here When I see less and less of good times And things and those I love are seldom near. It is then I cling to structure And the little cracks of light that appear They keep me from cracking up in my mind And keep hope a little closer than fear. Be gentle with your own minds When dark times do appear We’re all traveling through our own lives With different challenges and hopes while we're here. Battling our feelings and our minds We battle most everything we fear And I just hope as we walk through dark times For you, that little bit of structure, and cracks of light appear. When you are walking through those dark times Try take something from the fact you are here And keep battling through those dark times Till those cracks of light appear. © Daniel Breslin
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Something Undeniable
Looking for something reliable Something I can hold Something undeniable That doesn’t leave me feeling cold. Looking for connection With someone connected to me Looking for affection The kind I can feel or see. Looking for another That doesn’t make me feel alone Looking for the other To make this world a home. There’s love in communication And that’s what I really need I’m searching for a deeper stimulation Something more for me. I’ve spent a lot of time Meeting others needs And I have a little hurt and anger In how others have treated me. I have an anger with myself In my needs and how I express them Still learning in the loss For in every loss a lesson. I have an anger at myself For actions, made in pain But I show compassion to myself For I sure can’t shoulder all the blame. I have a sense of grief In how I might have made others feel As I struggled for some peace and relief From the depth of pain I was facing, in my efforts to heal. I have a sense of loss In the things that weren’t there for me The things I couldn’t get across The things others maybe didn’t see. Pain can cloud your mind Pain can cloud your vision But pain must be given its time If we are to really connect with the life we’re living. Nothing is resolved Few things in this life are sure But as I try to problem solve Something deeper, feels, the only cure. Every day’s a step In the right direction Where I grow, knowing a little less In my journey, toward love and affection. © Daniel Breslin
Meet And Greet
Feeling sorry for myself In some ways that’s where I’ve been Trying to nurse a broken heart Deny the pain I’m in. Kind of used to fighting pain Just ploughing into something else Trying to focus heart and brain On making something of myself. Always trying to make something out of it Create something better than before But for awhile there’s been really no getting out of it And the pain in my heart has been harder to ignore. This particular pain Is not one I really know how to deal with But maybe in that there’s change Got to learn to accept and really feel it. I’ve been in search of comfort Not really sure of how or where to find it As certain things in life give me such discomfort And of them I’m constantly reminded. We can try and distance ourselves from pain Pretend our reality is not what it really is That’s something I’m trying to change But now and again I’m still guilty of this. I’ve found some comfort in sharing Something I’m constantly trying to improve But sometimes some things in life are wearing And you can’t help but feeling bruised. But today the sun is shining And I acknowledge that pain deep And I lose the sorry for myself part Not something you can always avoid but not a part you have to keep. I go out and face the day A little more aware, vulnerable, and yet stronger in who I am We all have our burdens to bare And not everything goes to plan. I don’t even know what that plan is Just that in my heart I want some change in And I feel more certain in the knowledge, we all have days Where it feels good, to meet and greet our pain within. © Daniel Breslin
Sunset
I’m sitting in the stillness Watching the birds fly Watching the sunset Give colour to the sky. I hear my neighbours in their garden Talk muffled behind their kids play And I’m not intentionally trying to listen But I can’t help but laugh at what the kids say. They talk of missing school How it feels like summer is already done And they list the things they love Like just to do that is fun. There is such life in their voices I’m lifted by the words they say As they are so excited making their choices Naming the things that make their day I’m taken back to my own youth Something that is forever slipping away But kids have a way of giving it back to you Effortlessly, in their play. Talk about their favourite sandwiches Simple things they love Giving off the feeling That this world is inherently good And I return to me As they venture back inside And I look up a little differently At the sunset in the sky. I sit in the stillness Feeling the breeze, watching birds fly And I sense the loss of youth To be a trick of the mind’s eye. © Daniel Breslin
Every Day I’m Learning
Every day I’m learning Through trials and tribulations Learning about pain Learning about patience. Learning we don’t always get For what it is we’re waiting Learning about love Learning about creating. Learning about vulnerability And the different ways we show it Learning how to move in it Learning how to grow it. Learning what I want Learning what I don’t Learning what I no longer will Learning what I no longer won’t. Don’t always get it right That’s a trick for the dead But those of us with life Need to learn to love ourselves through our mistakes instead. Learning how to be more open Let others deeper in Learning how much I’ve kept closed And as those doors open, of new paths to begin. Always looking for improvement Trying to learn and move with them Set backs through bumps and bruising Upsets to our rhythm. Learning what I can Learning what I could Learning what I hate Learning what I love. Learning is the key As I search for growth And where there’s learning for me There always remains hope. Don’t always get it right That’s a trick for the dead But those of us with life Need to learn to love ourselves, through our mistakes instead. Every day I’m learning Every day is a new one you see And every day I’m churning My mistakes into future opportunity. Don’t always get it right That’s a trick for the dead But those of us with life Need to learn, to love ourselves, through our mistakes instead. © Daniel Breslin
Love In The Distance
I see love in the distance I see love in a nod In strangers who are neighbours Who take to the street to applaud. Players I can’t see But a player or players I can hear As they play music in a sign of unity And to show that community is still here. I see love in the distance As I lean out and squint my eyes To see neighbours coming closer Keeping space, while leaving their homes inside. I see love in the distance In how they meet and greet each other Their nods of applaud hold such significance Non physical hugs, we now give each other. I see community, I see spirit I see strength, and I see will And what I can’t see I can hear And I feel the love, that distance can not kill. I see spark and I see heart I see unity and I see hope In the spaces kept between neighbours In strangers up the road. As they gather in their outing For twenty to forty minutes maybe most At a time full of doubting To show in distance we’re still close. I see love in the distance In how we greet in a nod And the physicality that’s now missing Is replaced in a different bond. I see love in the distance I see love in music and a nod In strangers who are neighbours Taking to the street to bond in an applaud. © Daniel Breslin
Lost Years
Stepping into a state of grace
Away from my mistakes
Committed under the weight
Of multiple heartbreaks.
Coming to terms with the pain I was in
Pain impossible to avoid
And as I start the path from pain
I rejoice in the fact, that in that pain I was not destroyed.
It feels like everything happened at once
Everything came in a bundle
Just as I was coming to terms with one
Another tragedy would leave me humbled.
When the foundations of my family
Were crumbling before my eyes
Every other bit of pain and tragedy
Lacerated this heart inside.
I watched some I love
Go through some unexpected horrors
Lost a couple of friends
And the pain of their lost tomorrows.
Lost a bit of myself
Or an image of who I thought I was
Some of it through pain
Some of it through sacrifice for a cause.
Lost the foolish concept
That I can do it all on my own
And have been forced to get more honest
With the pain of my own home.
The pain of my beginnings
The pain of who I am
It’s in pain that I’ve been living
But I can feel it beginning to leave this man.
I accept where it is I’m at
I accept from where it is I’ve come
And I take pride in the fact
Of a lot of what I have done and overcome.
Ain’t done it all that smoothly
But I ain’t done it all that bad
My heart and soul have taken one almighty bruising
Yet here I stand.
I let go of what I hoped might be
And I’ll focus on what can be done
I won’t dwell on lost opportunity
Only on the opportunities to come.
I can’t make others decisions
That’s a privilege for themselves
I’ll just get more focused on the life I’m living
And the responsibility to myself.
I let loose responsibility to others
And redirect that focus to me
I’ve given there what I can
Now I’m giving back to me.
I made it through as best I could
I survived the best way I knew how
So I won’t linger on thoughts of should
When I look at where I am now.
These were years full of loss
And I got a little lost in them
But their lessons were not lost
And out of boys that makes men.
I’ll emerge the stronger
And I’ll emerge the better
I’ll not put up with certain things longer
But I learned I can put up with a hell of a lot of pressure.
So out of years of loss
Years lost in pain
While not side stepping the cost
I can see growth all the same.
I take pride in who I am
Focus on what’s ahead
Things fall as they fall
So I’ll not linger on regret.
Regrets are for those
Who keep their feelings to themselves
Or who walk the path of comfort
When the right path leads through hell.
This life is just a journey
We must not fear its depths
For in that there is such learning
About this world and about ourselves.
I’ve rarely shied from pain
I’ve maybe just been a little slow to share it
Always thought it was my burden to claim
And that I had the strength to bare it.
That’s a part I’m changing
And it’s bringing others closer
As I become more open in my pain and my vulnerability
And a certain family role is over.
There ain’t no fairytales here
It’s just facing what you are
And a lot of people can’t do that
So they can only get so far.
I hold my hands up to my mistakes
But I have compassion for where I was
I was operating under a lot of weights
So I have compassion for my flaws.
I have huge compassion for others
Now it’s time for some for me
And it’s through the act of self-compassion
We really set ourselves free.
Stepping into a state of grace
Away from my mistakes
Committed under the weight
Of multiple heartbreaks.
These were years full of loss
And I got a little lost in them
But their lessons were not lost
And out of boys, that makes men.
© Daniel Breslin