He drops a knee
And cops a plea
Praying don’t you scoff at me
Please agree
To the possibility
Of you and me
Starting a family tree
I’ve dumped a knee
Please jump with glee
He bites his tongue
What has he done
She hesitates
His anxiety escalates
He scans her face
For a trace
Of what awaits
He wants a warm embrace
Not left a bitter taste
Did he act with haste
Her mouth goes wide
He’s doubts inside
As a tear comes to her eye
Eternity goes by
She lets out a sigh
Then begins to cry
His heart thumps in his chest
As she simply mouths yes.

© Daniel Breslin

How does he stop his mum from crying
When he tells her that he’s dying
How does he find the strength
To speak the words
Bluff strength
When he’s full of nerves
How does he best describe
There’s no chance left to survive
There is no easy way to explain
So there’s little way to ease the pain
When he dies
Some of her dies with him
Not thinking of himself
First wants her to forgive him
But when he looks in her eyes
They build a prison
So he looks to the skies
Prays strength will be given
Last night he prayed
For the first time in a long one
Poured a drink
Made it a strong one
Had a decision
Made the wrong one
Now the land of the living
Is one he doesn’t have long on
When he looks in the mirror
And it mirrors himself
He gets a shiver
Cause it mirrors bad health
Maybe some don’t see it
It’s something he can’t escape
Good life it was scenic
Now taken an odd shape.

Now he’s walking on grounds
He never walked before
And if he had the choice
He’d walk them no more
It’s a bitter pill
He has to swallow
Though he’s alive still
He’s not hollow
There’s still something inside
For the world to see
He’s not yet died
Won’t live in privacy
Now he’s told his mum
She could cry forever
But while he’s alive
He says smiles are better
Smile with me now
In what time we have
No good to allow
The mind think on the bad
The tears they’ll come
No matter how hard we fight them
So we should have fun
No need to entice them
When they come
We’ll fight them with strength
And when I’m done
Hold no hint of resent
No good to hold anger
Deep in your soul
No answer to the anger
You’re only digging a hole
Put down the shovel
Your whole life’s been work
Mama give us a cuddle
I can’t value its worth.

Life is full of chances
Many we take
Sometimes we like the answers
Others come back in our face
He went out with a near stranger
Someone he’d only just met
Was blind to the danger
Took a risk no safe bet
She was a woman of the world
He was a prowler of the night
Took comfort in this girl
Played a howler through drunken sight
But he doesn’t blame her
They are both victims here
Sometimes events occur
Where we must rise and persevere
We only get the one life
Now that seems all together clear
So while there is still sunlight
That’s light he’ll treasure dear
Life’s fight so ever near
Last rights are edging near
Yes he’s hedging fear
They are deeply embedded here
But despite this
He chooses to fight this
He looks for brightness
Through the slightest
Crack,
In the wall
Wants to try have a laugh
Have a ball
Now he wouldn’t wish it on a soul
The problems his and he takes control
And it’s funny
When people ask his mum how she handles this
Even through the tragedy a smile she always manages
‘When I look at my son and some look like he’s a weirdo
I think of all he’s overcome and in my son I see a hero’.

© Daniel Breslin

Here I am on my own again
Smoking a split, surrounded by friends
I’m losing scope
Can’t stop smoking dope
Then became a dope
All I do is mope
Barely ever seem to smile
Think I’ve changed, I’m a different style
I used to be outgoing
But now my memory’s slowing
And I think it’s showing
Shit, you think they be knowing?
Paranoid now, try and stress a smile
Paranoia, just more shit on my pile
Blow only serves to rile
Me into a trance for awhile
On my own cut off
My brain shut off
So focused on daydreams
You wouldn’t believe what I just seen
Then my memory wipes clean
My brains playing for a different team
Ganging up on me
I swear that motherfucker’s my enemy
He won’t let me be
Always depressing me
Why you stressing me?
Set me free
All I do is think
And then I think
Did I just blink?
Shit I over think
My mind playing games on me
He’s got different aims than me
Ain’t y’all see a change in me?
I’m a stranger me
I’m a different person
On my own lift the curtain
This is my soul
Can you see the whole
It’s taking its toll
I’m losing all control.

Please someone help me
I feel unhealthy
Ain’t been myself see
At least not lately
Think I’m going crazy
Won’t someone save me.

When I’m in a crowd I feel lonely
I think man if only
I hadn’t done a certain act
I wouldn’t be where I’m at
But I am, that’s the fact
There’s no turning back
I’m young I should be livin’
All sins forgiven
Feel trapped in a prison
On a site working for a livin’
I’m fine while I’m there
But I get home back in this chair
And all I do is stare
Into thin air
My mind wandering
While everybody wondering
What the fuck is his game
All shouting my name
While I’m fighting my brain
Trying to get him to explain
What happened to our compatibility
Why he’s changing my personality
Shutting off reality
Another fatality
BANG! A boot up the ass
And everybody laugh
At my dumb ass
Man hurry up and pass
You been hogging that grass
In future you’re getting the thing last
I’m not the same as I used to
That’s what herbal abuse do
Who knew?
Not me
I didn’t see
The possibility
Drugs would get a hold of me.
Take a blow off the smoke
As I cough and choke
Think is it my attitude or just the smoke
Even a thick could tell you it’s both.

Please someone help me
I feel unhealthy
Ain’t been myself see
At least not lately
Think I’m going crazy
Won’t someone save me?

Everyday I get the blues
Try to fight it but I lose
I’m not the one who gets to choose
As long as I misuse
The marijuana
I’m never gonna
Get my life together
Work hard so I can better
Myself
Get fit, improve my health
To get back to myself
Would be beyond any financial wealth
That’s the truth
Think I’ve found the root
To all my problems
Maybe now I can start to solve them
They will start dissolving
And my world will start revolving
Again,
For I’ve been still for awhile now my friend
Instead of my life coming to an end
Maybe now it’s on the mend
Now I think I can
Take the step from boy to man
Realise I’ve to suffer the consequences
Of my own actions
And my worst action
Was getting caught up in distractions
And forgetting my own passion
Expression,
Have to learn to stop stressing
And take this as a lesson
Learned,
As the world turns
One chance spurned
Means another must be earned.

© Daniel Breslin

The world
Made but few angels
Though at my table
It placed two.
I was blessed
Before the cradle
When life
Delivered me to you.

All laid out before me
Life, must adore me
There are thorns
In every story.
But mine, would not be
Born or formed
But for
My mothers glory.

© Daniel Breslin

Beneath the shell
There’s a beating hell
Where silence fells
The beating swell.

In each one of its beats
A memory weeps
Buried in deep
Not dead it just sleeps.

Concealed in its cave
Behind paths unpaved
A sleeping brave
Lies, lost in its ways.

© Daniel Breslin

Being the fool
Being the idiot
Just for the hell of it
Just to see it.

Been the fool
At times it was needed
Now it’s time for new rules
Even a fool can see it.

Time to chase goals
Work is needed
Burdened my soul
Time to relieve it.

Gone in directions
Sacrificed me
Some heavy corrections
In immediate need.

Talk is cheap
Words are words
Only through actions
Can one ever be heard.

© Daniel Breslin

I see your faults
They show you’re false
Take words with salt
Don’t speak, stop, halt

Stop lying through your teeth
Every time we meet
Every time you speak
You scared what’s underneath?

If you got something to offer
Offer something proper
If you’re the show, then I’m the stopper
You ain’t no teeny bopper.

You ain’t no little kid
Lying about what you did
You’re a grown up make a bid
Be yourself don’t leave him hid.

Don’t keep him all tied in
Release him from hiding
Free yourself
From yourself.

By being yourself
Not someone else
Stop making fabrications
Expecting adulation.

Time faking
Is time wasting
Time’s a wasting
Better hasten.

You better get a moving
What’s the point you’re proving
By being someone else yourself is losing
Get one life, start life choosing.

You’re stuck in a time
Your mind’s warped
Think people are blind
To all your warts?

Well, people aren’t blind
They see their source
Let it play on your mind
You’re coming up short.

Be your own person
Start conversing
And start dispersing
For the acts not working.

Since they all wince
When they get a glimpse
Of your presence
Take the hint.

For your own sake
Stop being a fake
It’s make or break
Don’t leave it wait.

Drive me crazy
You ain’t a baby
You been acting lately
Start acting bravely.

© Daniel Breslin